| .has it really been 7 months since ive last posted on my dear mitsukicake xanga? oh my...o.o; Damn. I cant believe i havent been on here that long. ever since myspace has started everyone abandoned our dear loveable Xangas. Which is where we first started out @_@. Wow. o.o i remember when mishii set me this account up. *3* ahhh the memoriesss!! -scartches head- yeppu. -yawns- *( o.o )* ive gotten fatter and my pompoms seem to be becoming more distant XDD lmao. dudde im seriously bored...well moo moo chan will check in later. ...............................................................xoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox ^w^ and by the way my dears Have a merry Christmas Hanukah (sp?) Kwanza o.o and other thingies. AND A HAPPY NEEW YEAR AKEOME!!!! |
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| mood: depressed. pissed. do i need to go on..?
thinking bout: usual stuff
Hey peps. been a while o_o since ive writtened on Xanga. It seems everyones disappearing to Myspace o_o;; Well. Its been suckie theses past weeks. After papa passed away its felt like mine..my moms and even josh's life have turned upside down. People say you get over this but i think itll take us years to settle down. I cryed again today. I seriously try to be strong and try not to cry but gosh so many things remind me of him. o_o WOW IT GOT SMALLER. WHAT THE HELLLLL IM A MIDGET HEEEEEEEELLLLLP. o.o o_o wooow...anyway ill just use this one. You know what. I thought about something. Guys out there who are good to their woman..love em and everything..are pretty hard to find these days. now these days guys just want womens bodies and all that shit. They touch you. They hug you. They kiss you..tell you they love you. But don't you ever get a feeling their lying and not telling the whole truth? im not saying like i know but from what ive seen ive been thinking. Its hard to find guys that actually really mean it these days what they say.
I say to myself most times.."What am i doing looking for someone? Theres no one out there..may never be. " or.."who would want me?" is the usual question. I think i have this serious problem where i hate myself. i hate the way i look. everything. i look into the mirror and i see someone i hate and don't like. Today guys want the natural things. A skinny gurl. Nice chest. and of course an ass. Mostly it right? Im not saying all guys are like that. But..yeah. Since i most of them time have the feeling no ones there for me..i guess well. ive changed. Im dressing more boyish than before. hehe. my dad's shirts mostly. Soon ill be wearing his pants xD heh. I guess the more boyish i dress. The more comfortable i feel and think..no one would like me now. Too boyish for them. Iunno. Im not sure sometimes. Right now i feel as lonely as a rock surrounded by nada. nothing. You guys (everyone. i call everyone that XD like "hey guys!" or...yeah you get it.) probably thinking. "what the hell she talking bout. She complain too much." well..maybe i do but im just expressing myself. Thats why im starting to drift away from my friends. This world. and going into a little world of my own where darkness fills the sky nor day or night. where it rains everyday...and where im all alone. Just me. Me and my world. Im acting selfish...iunno oh im acting. I haven't had any feelings..Love happiness excitement...i haven't felt any of em. i feel..empty. like the bottom of a endless pit. The darkness goes on and on..on..forever. Get what im saying..? Well anyway i gotta go to sleep. Love you guys. Thanks for being there for me all the time. Even though i do complain alot. Mucho love. adios. ciao. bis spater.
( ^_^ )/))) ~*moo-moo-chan*~ |
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| OMFG its been forevver!!! -huggles xanga- IM SOOO SORRRRY anyways HAPPU VALENTINES DAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!! O_O HOPE YOU HAVE A NICE ONE
o.o i finally will. <3 got my mikeytaquito! o.o if you get chocolate. o_o please don't eat it all warning. warning. o_o do not eat it all. i warn you!!!! o.o also!!! If none of you know..some of you my new screenname is XxChibiFajitaxX o_o OKAY!? IM SO SORRY IF I DIDN'T TELL YOU!! forgiiiveee meeee~! >.< gomen neee! umm..what else. yay. 13 more weeks till SUMMMMMMER!!!! VACAAATIOON!!! -dances- UMMMMM mmm....umm ill talk to you guys latewr!! IM me if you wannnnaaa!!! MUCHO LOVEO TO YOU ALLLLLL I LOOVE YOU ALLL SO MUCH TOT |
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| HAPPY BIRTHDAY SATOOSHII ^_^ happy 19th birthday nii-kun!! i love you big brooother =D!
Also happy new years to everyone! finally 2006~~!!! i have 3 more years till i graduate ^_^ YEAH!!! -high5s misha- 3 MORE YEARS MISHA!! *O*~~ theeen weee ooout~
o.o i talked to maya until like 6am...xD it was fun but i know she was tried. T_T i told her to go to sleeepp...o.o man i love that chick. best friend you can have XD o_o of course you guys are my best friends too T_T whoever is reading this..liiike misha! xDD <_< im playing soul calibur 3 now! its sooo coool *O* and i love how talim looks!! its so much interesting. :3! o.o/) welll ttyl my loves. bis spater ^_~! means until later in german xD -flys off- |
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| Ever wish you could go back in time and redo the things that you didn't mean to do but actually wanted to do but wasn't exactly ready to do o_o but then you didn't think it was the right time? o.o yeah i know confuso. but yeah. I did something I didn't wanna do but did. Yeah some of you know what i mean. --..-- yeah i wanted to so hit myself for doing it. But i did and i can't go back and redo what ive done. =.= grr...i should slap myself..-slaps self- IM SUCH AN IDIOT!!! But hey. whats done is done. (\-.-/) -sigh- o.o Ana made a club called "WE'RE SEXY but single" o.o club XDDD funny. lol. ahh...-sigh again- ==__== So o.o.......Im eating Collard greens and some..meat i forgot is called but is still good. o.o borredd. omg my library book was suppose to be returned before winter break but i forgot ._.;;; x.x so dumb. <.< so more dues to pay. Well im taking Alegebra 1 o.o and sciences and pe and something else. oh yeah english. o.o well if i ever get minutes on my cell you can call me on..334-559-7058 <.< if u dun know me..pwease don't call ^-^. =.=........Well ill write later when im more in the mood. o.o/) moo-moo luffs ya...*( o.o )* -flys off- |
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